The rural daughter-in-law of the bank president

Chapter 311 Live in the Moment

Two people sat at the head of the bed, one at the door and one in the middle.

Li Qingyu said: "If you are sleepy, you can sleep a little longer. I will watch over you."

Lele smiled and said, "No, that's enough. It's just that I'm getting older. In the past, I could do it for two hours a day for a week."

"You're old... I'm afraid you have some misunderstanding about your age!"

Li Qingyu smiled and said, "This age is the most attractive."

"Haha, it's mainly due to my physical fitness, which is indeed not as good as it was in my twenties. I can't stay up late at night." Lele explained with a smile.

Li Qingyu hesitated for a moment and asked, "Mr. Chang, can I talk to you?"

Lele tilted his head and looked at Li Qingyu, "It's okay, just chat."

"Why don't you take the civil service exam?"

Lele stopped smiling and frowned, "I'm not sure either.

I don't know what stimulated me as a child, and it doesn't seem like anything. Maybe it was the influence of movies or TV shows?

From the time I graduated from university until I started working, I had some prejudices against people within the system - stereotypes?

Another reason may be due to personality, being more self-centered and liking freedom.

But now thinking about it, it’s actually quite ridiculous.

How much freedom can a member of society have?

Li Qingyu asked again: "What if I give you another choice?"

"Haha, out of ten choices, I might not take the test ten times!

Because the decision of whether to take the civil service exam is not a matter of a single moment; it is the cumulative influence of the environment over time.”

“If your life doesn’t go your way, will you regret it?”

Lele thought about it carefully and replied, “If life is not satisfactory, even if you take the civil service exam, you will not be satisfied.

Whether life is happy or not is not determined by a career.

It’s decided here!”

Lele clenched his fist, pounded his chest lightly, and looked at Li Qingyu with a smile.

Li Qingyu was silent, thinking carefully.

Lele asked, "Are you confused?"

Li Qingyu sighed, "I often don't know the meaning of life, I can't feel the beauty of life, and even love seems boring.

This was the case when I was in the system, so I wanted to escape.

After arriving here, I experienced a brief period of happiness, probably the joy of self-liberation after being free from constraints.

But soon, I started to feel lost again.”

Lele was stunned. She always thought that being cold and deep was a kind of temperament.

Now she understood that this was a disease - a disease called depression.

Lele moved two quilts behind him, folded his legs, and sat cross-legged on the bed.

After sitting comfortably, he said, “Camus said: The meaning of life lies in the courage to bear the meaninglessness of life!

Maybe life is meaningless and life is not beautiful at all.

As for love, hey, love is magical, it is a lie, say it once and it is a lie; say it for a lifetime and it is love!

It was the first time that Li Qingyu heard Lele speak like this, and he looked at Lele in surprise.

After a long while, he said, "But the beauty that radiates from you from the inside out makes me yearn for you."

Lele said: "What's there to compare? My life is my life, your life is your life!

I give you my life, but you may not think it is beautiful.

And just like you look at me.

I see, what's wrong with you?

Good family background, good background, good looks, strong abilities!"

Li Qingyu lowered his head and eyes, with a cold face and beautiful lines.

Lele added, “Don’t be obsessed with the meaning.

Anyway, even if you live by instinct, just living, there will be no problem - live however you feel comfortable."

"Won't there be any problem?" Li Qingyu turned to look at Lele, his dark eyes deep and unfathomable.

"No, you can try."

Li Qingyu's tense body visibly collapsed.

His back hunched, his waist collapsed, and his long left leg rested on his right knee and began to tremble.

Lele leaned back into the quilt and laughed, "Feeling good?"

Lele stretched out her crossed legs and moved her toes as if she was dancing.

Li Qingyu smiled and said, "It's definitely more comfortable than being tense!"

Lele tucked his feet in, crossed his legs, straightened his back, and counted his Buddhist beads without any object. "The Buddha said: The four elements are empty!"

Li Qingyu also crossed her legs on the bed.

Lele leaned back on the quilt and lazily raised his right arm to support his head.

"You've been expected a lot since you were a child, right?

Study, interpersonal relationships, work, girlfriend... Your parents have set very high standards for you, right?

And you are very good, you completed it very well, in the eyes of others, you are perfect!"

Li Qingyu didn't say anything, but listened attentively to Lele.

“In fact, it’s always: radiating beauty—and also tiring.

I prefer to enjoy every little thing I do.

It may not be good for the future, but it is very meaningful to me at the moment.

For example: Now, eating a barbecue must be wonderful;

It must be wonderful to return to my big bed and have a good sleep;

Seeing my son, even just looking at him, is beautiful..."

Li Qingyu smiled imperceptibly and said, "I get it."

His eyes looked at Lele with softness.

When Lele looked at him, he quickly looked away.

He closed his eyes and murmured to himself: "It is very beautiful!"

......

The two chatted until dawn.

Lele didn't sleep well and felt tired.

I don't want to move, just stay in bed.

The rain hasn't stopped yet, but it's light now.

It was breakfast time, but Lele had no appetite at all.

She asked Li Qingyu and Master Chen to go eat.

By the afternoon, unknown birds began to sing.

The rain finally stopped.

The raindrops are still dripping from the leaves.

The sunlight tore through the clouds and shone on the magnificent Main Hall.

I slept in the morning and had lunch at noon.

Plus, the sky cleared up after the rain, and I felt full of energy.

Go outside, stretch, breathe some air, look at the floods...

He was scolded back by the monk again.

Li Qingyu asked Lele in surprise: "Aren't they practicing? Why are they so bad-tempered?"

Lele laughed, "Why can't people be angry? They have to be morally blackmailed for being angry!"

Li Qingyu smiled and said, "I find that you can tolerate everything."

"Huh? Hey, just putting yourself in their shoes."

Lele jumped into the room lightly.

Three people, chatting casually.

Master Chen asked Li Qingyu: "Why doesn't Mr. Li get married?"

Li Qingyu leaned against the wall, squinting his eyes, expressionless: "No one is suitable."

"No desire? No impulse?" Master Chen's eyes were sincere, as if asking if 1+1 doesn't equal 2?

Lele curled the corners of his lips and sighed, "Here we go again!"

Master Chen is an experienced driver. Not only does he drive steadily, but his “driving” is also steady.

On weekdays at the company, a group of men love to make fun of him because he has a lot of dirty jokes.

Every time he describes it vividly, as if he had experienced it personally.

It's hard work when you're on a business trip.

The team is quite happy with him in it.

But when he was driving Lele, he was calm and reserved, spoke little, and drove very steadily.

And very perceptive.