PDLP Chapter 205 Yixiu 2
Chapter 205 Yixiu 2
After my sister entered the palace, he rarely came to see me. When I was pregnant, Yuebin came to see me occasionally, but there was really too little for us to talk about.
Two months later, I gave birth to a son. Because I was in a bad mood and worried a lot during pregnancy, the child was born with congenital deficiencies and was weak.
But Honghui is cute and well-behaved. When I'm unhappy, he always smiles at me. Looking at his smiling face, I forget all my worries. Sometimes I think, let it be, as long as Honghui grows up safely, I have nothing else to ask for!
Time passed day by day, and Honghui grew up day by day, but his health was getting worse and worse. A common cold could take half of his life. I used up all my life's knowledge and struggled to let him grow up to three years old, but I also knew that his body had been hollowed out and he would leave me sooner or later.
He became increasingly busy, and the occasional free time he had was spent on my sister, and he gradually became indifferent to us mother and son.
The servants in the mansion are used to treating people differently based on their status, and they are becoming increasingly indifferent to Honghui and me.
"Mother, Ama hasn't come to see me for a long time. I miss him so much!"
"Be good, Honghui. Your father is busy. He will definitely come to see you when he is done!"
"Okay! Honghui will be waiting."
A few days passed.
"Mother, I heard from you that Father is back. Shall we go see him?"
Looking at my son's expectant eyes, my heart felt like it was being cut by a knife. I didn't care about my face and took him to my sister's yard.
"Concubine, please go back! Lord Beile is busy and I'm afraid he won't be able to see you."
"Please tell Madam that the eldest prince misses you, Prince Beile. Please come visit us when you are free."
"Got it, Concubine, please go back!"
I turned and left with Honghui, who was full of disappointment.
The moment I left, I saw the contempt and disdain in Mammy's eyes.
I have seen this kind of look for more than ten years, and now my son has to endure the pain I have experienced.
Even though he was the eldest prince in the Beile Mansion, he was just a bastard.
He originally had the chance to become the legitimate son, but it was snatched away from him!
If it weren't for my sister, I wouldn't have been so worried during my pregnancy, causing Honghui to be in poor health.
How can I not hate it.
On the way back, a cold wind suddenly blew and heavy rain was about to come.
"Mother, I'm cold."
I was immersed in sadness and anger and didn't hear Honghui's words clearly.
As soon as I returned to the hospital, I received news that my sister was pregnant!
She is pregnant, how could she be pregnant? My son, my Honghui is no longer his only son!
As it got dark, Honghui started to have a fever, his face turned red and his breathing became rapid.
Yuebin came to visit Honghui, said a few words and left. I looked at her back and fell into deep thought.
She was born into a noble family and had her family as a support. Even if he was busy, he would still make time to talk to her. But me, even with a child, he still didn't care about me.
I want to use Honghui to attract his attention and make him dissatisfied with my sister.
I sent someone to my sister's courtyard to invite the prince over, but I didn't tell him that Honghui was sick. My sister's personal nanny was my mother's dowry maid. She hated me, and the nanny also hated me and Honghui, so she would definitely not tell him about it.
I also sent a trusted person to the on-duty doctor to inform him that his mother was seriously ill and to ask him to return home immediately. So, there was no other doctor in the mansion except my sister's!
An hour later, Honghui suddenly started to twitch. I panicked and rushed to my sister's yard with him in my arms. However, before I got there, Honghui stopped breathing in my arms.
It was she who killed my Honghui.
The rain was so heavy, I held him, feeling his hot body getting colder in my arms. I walked and walked all night, wanting to walk to the Yama Palace and pray to all the gods and Buddhas in the hall to take my life, please take my life, not my son's life!
The next day, Lord Beile sent me a message, asking me to lead the others to my sister's courtyard.
I put Honghui down, went back to the house, put on luxurious clothes, put on exquisite makeup, and knelt at my sister's feet:
"I congratulate Madam on your pregnancy."
He nodded with satisfaction: "Although Honghui is gone, your sister is pregnant. Her child is your child. You must take good care of her!"
"Yes, I obey your command."
In the days that followed, it was as if I had completely erased the child that once belonged to me from the depths of my memory. Not even the slightest trace of sadness could be found on my face. Every day, I stayed by my eldest sister's side with a smile on my face, dedicatedly tending to her pregnancy.
He often sighed about the deep sisterly love between us, and I smiled and nodded in agreement, then turned around and asked my sister if she was thirsty or hungry!
Only I know that I have no heart anymore!
My sister is beautiful and talented, but how could she be so stupid? After so many things happened, she still thought that I had a deep sisterly relationship with her and trusted me.
I steamed food in banana leaves, replaced her almond tea with peach kernels, and a smile appeared on my face as I watched her eat the "poison" I gave her.
Yes, I want revenge. It was she who killed my Honghui. It was her. All this has nothing to do with me!
A few months later, she caused Gan to have a miscarriage because of the kneeling punishment, and she herself was frightened and went into premature labor. She passed away after giving birth to a stillborn baby.
I finally got my revenge.
But that rainy night became a nightmare that I can't get rid of.
"Mother, I'm cold!"
"Mother, save me!"
"Mother..."
I will never have children again!
The next year, I finally got my wish and became his legitimate wife.
A few years later, Li Jingyan entered the mansion. I observed her for a year and discovered she was truly foolish, simple-minded and superficial, her emotions fully revealed, without a trace of concealment or scheming. Perhaps he was so used to seeing dignified and elegant ladies from wealthy families that he was delighted by this "foolish beauty" and couldn't let go of her.
Manipulating someone as simple-minded as her was naturally easy. So, I acted like a consort, always caring and attentive to her, and occasionally showering her with generous rewards. Sure enough, before long, she became my most loyal follower.
Time flew by, and before long, the joyous news arrived—she was pregnant! Upon hearing this news, my heart overflowed with joy, even greater than hers. I immediately assigned the most skilled physician in our household to meticulously care for her daily needs, ensuring the safety of both mother and child. Ultimately, her efforts paid off, and she successfully gave birth to the third prince, Hongshi.
This is also his eldest son.
As I gently cradled the delicate baby in my arms, a flood of emotion washed over me. Looking at his fair, rosy skin, and his more robust and sturdy body compared to Honghui's, I realized this was Li Jingyan's child, but it might not be mine. Now that I had this child, there was no need for other children!
I also know that I have given my heart to the wrong person, but I still try my best to please him. Maybe he will turn around and look at me who has been waiting there.
After countless disappointments, I can only cling to the last straw in my hand - power.