PDLP Chapter 211 Zhou's Mother's Secret
Chapter 211 Zhou's Mother's Secret
211 Zhou's Mother's Secret
Now that she is being misunderstood and misunderstood by her child, how could she not feel sad? She is filled with contradictions and struggles, not knowing what to do.
Smile bitterly.
She didn't know what else she could do, and could only face it all with a bitter smile.
It feels like karma.
She began to wonder if all of this was retribution for her past actions.
Zhou Junhao stared expressionlessly at his mother's heart-wrenching appearance, but his heart remained unmoved, and he did not offer any help or comfort.
His gaze was cold and deep, as if he were staring at a stranger, not the woman who had given him life.
His mother, Zhou's mother, was huddled in a corner of the room, tears and sweat mingling together, her face filled with despair and pain.
In Zhou Junhao's heart, the warmth and kinship he once felt have been replaced by the cold truth.
In the past, he might have comforted his mother, but upon learning the truth, everything seemed absurd and ridiculous, sending shivers down his spine.
He remembered that night when he overheard his parents arguing. Those secrets, hidden for so many years, pierced his heart like a sharp knife.
He felt as if he were standing on the edge of an abyss, where every step could plunge him into endless darkness.
He didn't know how his mother had kept it from his father. When he learned the truth, he regretted being there at that moment. The truth about those things left him bewildered, which led to his later mediocre and unambitious attitude.
He began to doubt his own existence, doubt everything about the Zhou family, and doubt the ugliness and lies hidden behind this once seemingly perfect family.
It wasn't that he didn't want to, but that he was afraid of the truth coming out, which made him afraid of everything.
He was afraid to face his mother, afraid to face the family he once loved so deeply, and afraid to uncover the secrets buried by time.
He preferred to escape, choosing not to confront the truths that pained him.
"Mom, do you think no one knows what you've done? How can you be so at ease with yourself? Aren't you afraid of the truth being found out?"
Zhou Junhao's voice was deep and powerful, each word like a heavy hammer striking Zhou's mother's heart.
A flicker of panic crossed her eyes, but it was quickly replaced by a deep resentment.
Zhou Junhao's ambiguous words stopped his mother's wailing. She looked at him with fear in her eyes, as if confirming whether what she had just heard was true. Her heart was racing, and there was a hint of guilt in her eyes. This made Zhou Junhao smile coldly and look at his mother with a hint of disgust.
He loathed not only his mother's lies, but also the ugliness and hypocrisy hidden behind the family.
Zhou Junhao's disgusted gaze made Zhou's mother feel distressed. Looking at the similar face in front of her, the scenes that had happened back then flashed through her mind. Fear, pain, resentment... too many emotions weighed on her, making it hard for her to breathe.
She once thought she could hide those secrets forever, but reality was like a mirror, ruthlessly reflecting the truth she least wanted to face.
"When did you know that?"
Zhou's mother's voice trembled as she tried to get some comfort from Zhou Junhao, but his answer was like a cold knife, piercing her heart once again.
Knowing that Zhou Junhao had learned the truth, the shackles that had been weighing on Zhou's mother's heart were finally broken. Her eyes were filled with resentment, and she no longer concealed her disgust and hatred when she looked at Zhou Junhao, which made Zhou Junhao frown slightly.
He never imagined that things would come to this point between him and his mother. He used to think that family ties were unbreakable, but now it seems that was just his naive fantasy.
"You think I wanted this? If I hadn't had no other choice, I would never have given birth to you. You're a bastard. If your beastly father hadn't raped me, do you think I wanted to have a child like you? Do you know what it felt like to have nowhere to turn? How much power do I, a woman, have? I begged him to let me go, but he actually..."
Zhou's mother's words were filled with anger and despair. Her eyes glistened with tears, but there was no tenderness in those tears, only endless pain and resentment.
Zhou's mother no longer concealed the pain and resentment she had carried for so many years. The fear and pain in her heart made her face the son she both loved and hated. Her feelings about this son were complicated. Knowing where he came from, Zhou's mother had feelings for him.
However, the thought of his arrival filled him with resentment, causing him to treat this child less attentively than his other children.
She tried to love the child, but every time she saw him, she was reminded of that painful past, making it impossible for her to love him wholeheartedly.
Zhou Junhao looked at his mother in shock, the shock in his heart was beyond his imagination.
He had always thought of himself as the pride of the Zhou family, the apple of his parents' eye, but now he realized that he was nothing more than a product of tragedy, a mistake that should never have existed.
The truth he had always kept hidden was such a past that he was at a loss for words, his feelings were very complicated.
He once thought he understood the world and his family, but now he finds himself knowing nothing at all.
He always thought...
Unexpectedly, his mother was a victim, which left Zhou Junhao speechless. He looked at his mother, unable to express his feelings, and moved his lips as if to say something, but he didn't know what to say.
His heart was filled with doubt and pain; he didn't know how to face this completely new truth.
"...So, I, I am not my father's child, but..." Zhou Junhao's voice trembled as he tried to accept this cruel reality, but his heart was resisting it.
Looking at his mother, who was in a stable emotional state, Zhou Junhao knew the truth but still refused to believe it. He asked again, hoping to hear a denial. However, his mother's complicated gaze told him that it was all wishful thinking.
His heart was filled with despair; he felt as if the whole world had abandoned him.
"Heh, so all along I've been the joke, the one who was... I was the one who..."
At this moment, Zhou Junhao felt that he was not even as good as Chu Jiuyue. At least she was Zhou's father's biological daughter, while he was a complete bastard. This was something Zhou Junhao could not accept.
He felt like an orphan abandoned by the world, without a sense of belonging or love.
At this moment, he would rather be his mother's illegitimate child with another man than be an unwanted bastard. He didn't know whether to pity his mother or himself.
His heart was filled with contradictions and struggles. He began to question the meaning of his existence. He felt like an orphan abandoned by the world, without a sense of belonging or love.
He began to wonder, if he were not a child of the Zhou family, what would become of his life?
Will he still be able to find his place? Will he still be able to find his own happiness?
Zhou Junhao was filled with confusion and helplessness. He didn't know what the future held for him. He only knew that from now on, he had to face a completely new version of himself, one who would no longer have the protection of the Zhou family.
He must learn to be strong, to be independent, and to face this cruel world. Even if the road ahead is full of thorns, he must keep going.
Zhou's mother had a complicated expression. She stared at Zhou Junhao, her heart churning with a thousand words, but she found herself unable to utter a sound.
Her feelings for this child were so complex and indescribable.
Her eyes held both deep love and unspeakable resentment.
Zhou Junhao, the child she raised single-handedly, every smile and every tear of his is deeply etched in Zhou's mother's heart.
She loved the child deeply, yet harbored an unspeakable resentment towards him.
Zhou's mother was filled with conflict. She knew that this resentment did not come from her own heart, but was because of that man—Zhou Junhao's biological father. His existence made Zhou's mother's life complicated and painful.
If it weren't for the helplessness she had at the time, she would never have chosen to keep the child.
Whenever she sees Zhou Junhao, she can't help but recall that shameful past event.
Therefore, she could never completely shake off feelings of resentment and helplessness when dealing with Zhou Junhao.
However, he was, after all, her child. She couldn't possibly not love him, nor could she truly wish for him to achieve nothing.
However, at times, she would unconsciously think that this child was the most incompetent and useless of all her children, and she held an inexplicable contempt for him.
Deep within Zhou's mother's heart lay a secret, a secret that kept her awake at night.
She understood that her mindset was largely influenced by that man; his image had left a deep imprint on the child's heart.
At this moment, Zhou Junhao finally understood something he had never been able to comprehend: it wasn't that his mother didn't love him, nor that she was unfair to him, but rather that his birth was a permanent disgrace to his mother.
This realization was hard for Zhou Junhao to accept, and his heart was filled with bitterness.
He felt like a pawn manipulated by fate, caught up in a tragedy from which he could not escape.
He knew that none of this should be blamed on his mother, but rather on the fault of his father, whom he had never met.
However, why should he, the most innocent person, bear all of this?
This caused Zhou Junhao's mind to become twisted.
He felt angry, helpless, and abandoned by the whole world.
His heart was filled with questions and pain; he couldn't understand why his fate had been so difficult.
"Mom, is that why you've disliked me all these years?" Zhou Junhao's voice trembled, his eyes filled with confusion and bewilderment.
His world seemed to collapse in an instant.
His once proud and arrogant identity has now become his greatest shame and a joke.
The people he could bully, ridicule, and suppress were the true children of the Zhou family, while he was just an unknown bastard.
This filled Zhou Junhao's heart with twisted emotions.
"Mom, why did you give birth to me? You should have killed me back then, and I wouldn't have been born in such a shameful way. I'm a joke. No wonder Dad—no, he's not my dad. Even if he doesn't know the truth, the blood relation makes him not like me very much. Every time he sees me, he treats me coldly."
"That's it, that's it..."
“I’m not his son at all, how could I possibly be related to him by blood? I, I, haha, no wonder I’ve never been liked by him, it’s because I’m not his child. Haha, I’m just a joke.”
"I arrogantly thought I was of a higher status than Chu Jiuyue, but now it seems I'm not even as good as Yun Jiumu, hahaha..."
Looking at her somewhat deranged son, Zhou's mother was filled with worry.
She was not only worried that her son would reveal the truth, but also worried that Zhou Junhao would be severely affected and become despondent, which made her even more uneasy.
Her heart was filled with guilt and self-blame. She knew that it was all because of her past and because of her choices.
“Junhao, things aren’t as you say. You should feel that even though he treats you well, he’s still quite nice to you. It’s just that he’s been a bit unhelpful with you sometimes, not that he doesn’t like you. If you could work harder and have a bright future, I believe he would treat you differently. You know him; he likes capable people, you…”
Zhou's mother was worried that Zhou Junhao would be unable to resist revealing the truth, which could ruin her life.
Her husband might divorce her, which was definitely not the outcome Zhou's mother wanted. Therefore, she could only try to calm Zhou Junhao down while also pointing out a possible way out for him.
Her words were full of pleading and expectation; she hoped that Zhou Junhao could understand her predicament and accept this cruel reality.
Her words really calmed Zhou Junhao down, and he began to think about his future.
He knew that his life wouldn't change until the truth was revealed. However, once his adoptive father found out, not only might his mother face the risk of divorce, but he himself might be driven away by his adoptive father to search for his biological father.
This was an outcome that neither she nor Zhou Junhao wanted; it was not the result he desired.
He understood that continuing his madness wouldn't solve the problem; he could only calm down and think about how to deal with the situation.
Zhou Junhao was filled with contradictions and struggles. He didn't know what his future held, but he knew he had to be strong and face everything. No matter the outcome, he had to bravely move forward.