PDLP Chapter 231: Knight of Dark Disaster 60
Chapter 231: Knight of Dark Disaster 60
The color scheme of the executive officer's attire is almost exactly the same as the knight's light armor and cloak that Xu Yan wore before, except that one is modern style and the other is Central European style.
But it looks equally good on Xu Yan, who has black hair and red eyes.
Since the world consciousness has signed a contract with Paradise and become a partner, the previous OOC punishment on Xu Yan has been taken back. His eyes have been restored and he no longer has to be afraid of seeing white.
Then those gorgeous eyes finally showed themselves again.
But there was no longer the gentleness and purity that belonged to Yan Cherno Bog, only the indifference and coldness that belonged to Xu Yan.
Bai Xi and Shiyi left shortly after Xu Yan started explaining to the three people, so there were only four of them left in the room.
Xu Yan sat in the main seat in this small conference room, and the other three sat in different positions at the conference table, with a distance between them.
"This... Mr. Executive."
While Ze and Nan were lost in thought over the complicated information, Tang Ze spoke first.
Xu Yan looked at him.
"You said my lover is really dead, but you are clearly here... I know what you mean, you are saying that Ayan is not you. But in my opinion, you are clearly the same person... I know I am a little incoherent, but..."
Tang Ze looked at Xu Yan stubbornly, "I can feel that you are Ah Yan."
Xu Yan's state when doing the mission in Tang Ze's world is different from that in other worlds.
Because of the interference of the strange system that stole half of the small world, he lost his memory for a long time, and during that time he was almost completely dominated by the memory of his 'original body'. It was not until he became an NPC in the strange game that he truly woke up.
Among all the mission targets, Tang Ze is undoubtedly special.
After all, the memories of the 'original body' in other small worlds were all from watching movies, but the memory of the 'original body' in this small world was almost like a personal experience because he regarded himself as the 'original body'.
Furthermore, Tang Ze is really the most reliable and mature one among all the mission targets, so it is less troublesome to focus on him.
So Xu Yan was willing to give him more patience.
As for the South...
It’s enough that the distorted thoughts have been corrected, there is nothing superfluous.
"This has to do with your self-awareness." Xu Yan said in an extremely calm tone, "No matter how you think or feel, to me, I am only who I am now. As an executive, I am myself. Any other 'me' is not me."
Xu Yan tapped the table with his black-gloved fingers, attracting the attention of everyone in the room.
"It may be a little cruel to say this, but I still say that the people you are looking for were never found from the beginning. The dead cannot be brought back, and the residue they left behind are the memories in my mind that have no sense of involvement."
"What about Cherno?"
Ze stared at Xu Yan intently, his eyes filled with scarlet bloodshot at some point, as if he was suppressing some emotion that was about to surge out.
"He's still here." Xu Yan pointed at his face. "As long as this body is alive, he's still here. It's just that the situation is special now, so I've taken over the leadership temporarily."
"So when the master was still alive, you and he also existed in the same body? Like different personalities?" Nan Ze spoke in a hoarse voice.
His face turned pale when he heard Xu Yan emphasize that "his husband died and could not be found". Although his eyes were focused on Xu Yan, they no longer had the same spirit as before.
Xu Yan might agree with this statement. Such an explanation would be more convincing and make them give up.
But he doesn't want to do that for the time being.
He has always believed that it is experience and memory that shape people, so he has always separated himself from his 'original self' and his 'former self'.
But at the same time, he also knew that no matter how much he emphasized it, others would still confuse them.
In essence, they are indeed the same individual, because both the 'original body' and the 'former body' must depend on him to exist, and they cannot be separated to become independent complete individuals.
Just like the three fragments of Yu Ze in front of him, to others they seem to have their own independent thoughts and souls, but in fact, they depend on Yu Ze for their existence and are not independent individuals.
The difference is that Yu Ze always resonates with these fragments, which is equivalent to him experiencing the life of each fragment personally.
But Xu Yan is not.
Yu Ze said that he would love him no matter what he became.
This sentence also means that Yu Ze did not agree with his idea.
He knew he was worrying himself, but he couldn't help it.
The 'original body' of this world seemed to be a large fragment. After it gradually returned, Xu Yan seemed to really fall in love with Yu Ze.
That's why he thinks about these things that he used to not care about at all.
And the more I think about it, the more I want the answer.
So he did not answer Nan Ze's question, but smiled and said, "In fact, as long as you think about a problem clearly, you won't be so entangled."
"Are you in love with your lover, or with me who is standing in front of you and looks nothing like your lover?"